Another Friday...already?

Looks like another Friday is upon us. Im not sure it matter much what we call it one day is pretty much like another in everything but minor details. You wake up, you do things, you go to sleep the days over the next day is wash rinse repeat. The only difference is what you do during the waking hours otherwise its all pretty much the same. I guess sometimes we might like the activities of one day more than another but thats just a personal preference. Some people actually like going to work each day and not having that would make them unhappy. Some people are so unhappy having to go to work each day the week is mostly misery for them. I guess it all depends on your point of view.  I think we've talked about this before good days and bad days of the week. I think we decide inside ourselves whether a day is a good day or a bad day then set out and make it one or the other. Life is too short to walk around miserable all the time or even most of the time especially if we have a choice. You know something, We always have a choice we might not like the choices and we might not want to see the choices but we always have a choice. We can always look at things from many perspectives and we get to choose which one we want. Anything can look different from a different perspective sometimes very different. Take an apple for instance you can look at one side and it might look great all ripe and juicy but if you look at the other side and see a big wormhole in it its suddenly not such a great thing. The apple never changed but your perspective did. Thats a simplistic example but it gets the idea across. We have control of the perspective we choose to view anything in and anything we see is greatly influenced by its perspective. With that being the case we actually have much more control over our situation and our own attitude about anything. We only have to take responsibility for our life and dont mean this in the way of taking blame but more in the way of taking ownership. Blame is something almost everyone tries to avoid because its usually followed by trouble of some sort or other. Ownership is different ownership means you have conttrol of something as it belongs to you. Take ownership of your life sometimes that means the blame too but it always means the choice of what actions to take. From there all you need to do is take good actions. Consequences are not always a bad thing Physics teaches us each action has a reaction or a consequence if you will. Not every reaction is a bad thing just like not every consequence is a bad thing. If you start acting in ways that have positive consequences you will have more positive things in your life. Always remember anything that happens in your life good or bad has one common denominator which is you. Its your life and its gonna do what you tell it whether you want it to or not might as well pay a little attention and work on getting consequence you like rather than ones you dont. Well Im done for today perhaps I will talk to you all later.

Why is it

When you sit down to write its so hard to think of something to say? When Im laying in bed at o dark thirty trying to go to sleep so many things run thru my head that seem so interesting at the time I cant get to sleep. By the next day I either forget or it does not seem so interesting. Oh well guess thats the way it goes sometimes. I did see an interesting Movie on HBO the other day. It was called "Too big to fail" it was all about the last financial melt down. The reason I mention it is I actually had some personal experience in that whole mess. I was forced to have a ring side seat to the entire mess. I think I mentioned on a previous post how I worked for several different companies and never really moved desks. Well one of the companies I worked for played heavily in that whole mess. In my and my coworkers defense our company was purchased by the huge conglomerate and we never really wanted to be employed by the three lettered giant company. (You may notice I have not actually said the name and really dont plan to I expect if you paid any attention to the news at that time you will be able to guess which company Im talking about and if not thats ok too.) Anyway they bought our company about  5 or 6 months before the crash. I watched company stock options become worthless almost over night. I read the company security email notices telling employees not to wear company logos or security badges out in public. I personally knew people that had been accosted on the street for wearing a company ID badge. Plus the daily calls from customers who were very angry and sometimes abusive. Just a side note here if you ever call customer service for anything like  say a credit card or insurance or your phone or utility bills its not a smart thing to threaten them almost all those calls are recorded and most of the time your personal information is already on the screen by the time the representative answers the call. So they know who you are and where youre calling from and have a recording of your threat. Its not really that smart leaving that many pieces of evidence against yourself. Anyway I watched from a unique perspective the meltdown that movie was talking about. One thing I learned is just because someone was in charge didnt mean they had a clue. This was a huge insurance company with Billions of dollars in assets that completely fell apart because one small section forgot the first rule in insurance which is, The whole point of insurance is to deal with catastrophic losses which means if you are an insurance company you had best plan for the worst case scenario. Simply put they didnt have a plan to cover all the losses they had promised to cover. Thats why when an insurance company does business the Dept of Insurance requires they have reserves to cover losses and they are not allowed to sell more policies than they have reserves to cover. Unfortunately someone figured if you dont call it insurance it doesnt have to be regulated by the Dept of Insurance so they called them credit default swaps instead. Who said words can never hurt you? Just changing those few words allowed them to completely over extend a multi billion dollar company I guess words do mean things after all. The really sad thing is it doesnt look like anyone learned anything from that mess and the whole wall street crowd is still at it. Sooner or later its all going to happen again. Unless of course Harold Camping or the Mayans are right then we have either a few months up to a year and a half then it wont matter I guess. I think Ive rambled enough tonight

Monday Monday Monday

Too bad I cant make an echo when I type cause that would be cool. Oh well maybe someday. Monday is upon us again but since we already talked about Monday we wont really go into the whole Monday thing. Today is a special Monday as it is  June 6th if youre not sure what June 6th means I suggest you watch the History Channel today Im sure they will mention it once or twice. If you already know June 6th is the D Day anniversary you probably watch the History Channel already. D Day the first day in the liberation of Europe from Hitler and his followers. It was the beginning thousands upon thousands of troops hitting the beaches and parachuting behind enemy lines. Thousands upon thousands of troops defending those beaches and inflicting terrible losses as those beaches were taken. It is impossible to know what its like doing those things unless youve already done them. The Impartiality of it....who lives who dies all depending on things no one can even see. Maybe a stumble will save one person and kill another. Everyone trying to kill and survive at the same time. Trying to kill someone is probably one of the most personal acts anyone can perform I mean someone trying to end your life its hard not to take it personally. At the same time in this situation one person is only part of the thousands involved its seems difficult to be more impersonal than being one out of hundreds of thousands. I find it strange thinking about it how the exact same thing can opposite. I can only imagine going through that. A history teacher of mine once said the war was won because of mass production. Our ability to produce equipment in greater numbers than the other side but also our ability to train average people to use that equipment properly because equipment without the personnel to use it is nothing. The ability to take average people and get them to do above average things speaks volumes to not only the training but to the average person because its almost impossible to train that kind of courage. That kind of motivation has to be there already and its hard to think of a time when we as a country were more motivated. We use the term "War" on this and on that and whatever else we want but we dont really understand what were saying. The next time someone starts in about a "war" on whatever issue theyre against I wonder if anyone will actually think about what the word War actually means? War is a nasty dirty horrible thing that kills people without any thought about it.  Robert E Lee said it was a good thing war is so terrible else we would grow to love it. I dont pretend to know I just always thought it was wrong in some way to trivialize that word the way we have been. Words mean things and War means death and destruction and is a terrible thing unfortunately it is sometimes better than the alternative. The hard part is knowing when one is worse than the other. Well this is a rambling post and in the end there are no answers. I do find it interesting that Memorial Day And D Day are so close together directing my thoughts down this path. At least the next major Holiday is July 4th maybe we can be happier then. Until then who knows what madness will ensue  I guess you will have to check back later and see.

Look out Im back again

Its Friday again funny how that happens every week. Im not even really looking forward to Saturday or anything so I guess Friday is just another day for me now. Not having to go into work everyday isnt as much fun as it seems sometime. Not that having to go into work everyday is fun or anything. There is something almost reassuring about a regular schedule. If my brain would ever cooperate I might even go find another job. I know crazy talk but without a job theres not as much to complain about. Once you get to that point after a while you can forget what day it is  because they all seem to be the same. Dont get me wrong here I didnt particularly like my job well the job wasnt so bad and the people I worked with were nice enough. Corporate America is really crazy Im not gonna name names but I worked for a good sized auto insurer. The 5 years I was the office I was employed by 4 different companies and never really moved desks or changed jobs. One change was going from the temp company that everyone started out working for to being hire as permanent so that was expected. The other 2 were corporate buyouts both of which made national news in one way or another. The first buyout was pretty quiet up until the parent company completely imploded in the recent financial mess. During that time employees were actually being harassed and assaulted for wearing their ID badges with the company name on it. It wasnt like any of us asked to work for that company we didnt even have a choice. One day a memo comes out and says were being sold. We werent even responsible for the financial problems of the parent company we had only been a part of that company for about 4 months when everything happened. Those were fun times answering the phones as customer service and getting cursed at for something that wasnt even related to the job but because of the main companies financial issues. Oh well I didnt really intend on getting that far into this issue on this post I might get deeper into it later. Suffice it to say about a year after the first sale of the company it was sold again so I worked for 4 companies and never moved buildings. Gotta love Corporate America where you can rise to the level of your incompetence the only place better for that is government. Oh well I think Im done talking now.

Again with the posting...whats up with that?

I think someone actually looked at this place the other day. They must have been lost or something because I dont think anyone would come here on purpose. I mean these are just pointless ramblings and have nothing to do with anything serious or even non-serious. As I read over the posts theyre not even funny  even an attempt at humor might help but not here. It doesnt make you laugh or cry or even think not even shallow thoughts much less deep ones. So why even bother I ask myself? I really never answer myself and I find that very annoying. I mean how rude to completely ignore a very valid question. But thats the kinda guy I am I guess, so deal with it.
Anyway we had a Holiday here last Monday and it got me thinking. How do you address people on Memorial Day? Do you say Happy Memorial Day? I mean its not like Christmas or July Fourth, days that were supposed to remember happy things. Memorial Day is a day we remember sad things, important things, but sad none the less. I dont know how to address Memorial Day all I know is I think about the people in my life who served in the military during some of the worst times to be in the military. Fortunately in my case these people survived and I was able to meet them later in their lives but they knew me from the beginning of mine. Two people in particular come to mind, My Uncle and My Grandfather. They both have impacted my life in ways I dont even know and the ways I do know are so deep I dont think I would be the same person I am today without having known them.  I think about them more often than Memorial Day but especially on Memorial Day. I think about what it would be like to be in a small boat in the Pacific and know in a matter of minutes the front door would open and you and your friends would have to run out into the water while other people were doing everything they could to kill you. To sit in an Airplane and know soon you would have to jump out and hope your chute opens and if it does to know youre going to float down to ground while people there are trying to kill you. I think of people I know today who are doing the same thing, knowing that as soon or even before they step out of the vehicle theyre riding in people will be trying to kill them and their friends. So many things its boggles my mind sometimes and I cant keep track. Anyway thats what I do around Memorial Day I dont know if its happy or sad but it is contemplative. Thats probably whats its all about I dont pretend to know or to tell anyone else what to do or think. Thats just me I guess. I hope everyone had a safe Memorial Day especially those for whom Memorial Day holds first hand memories. OK thats it for now I may talk later on who knows.

Its me again

I know its been a while and if anyone was actually paying attention to what Im doing they might have gotten bored by now. Fortunately for me it seems no one is interested in what is going on here. Not that it bothers me much a low profile allows me to say anything I want without worrying about bothering people well its not like I would be too worried about bothering anyone if they were reading this so I guess thats not really a good reason. But its the best I have so Im gonna go with it. Besides who wants a bunch of whiners hounding you about posting this that or the other. Lately Ive been dealing with health issues that have been ongoing for over 6 months now. It has been determined that its all in my head which means I go to the ENT and Neurologist regularly. Now dont get me wrong its actually kinda fun and you get these neat pills to take which make the world a more interesting place. That is the positive side of things the other side is the world has been a weird place for me for the last 6 to 10 months and these neat pills are supposed to make it a less weird place but theyre not. Bottom line no one knows why I walk around in a world thats determined to act like a roulette wheel. One specialist says it might be vestibular migraines the other one says it cant be vestibular migraines. So its either is or isnt vestibular migraines either way the world keeps spinning in altogether different directions. So anyway if anyone is out there watching thats part of whats going on perhaps I will talk about this some more later or perhaps I will talk about something altogether different. Theres no telling. Before I go I did want to just comment on surviving the 3-21-11 end of the world thing. I pretty much figured that was going to be the case but I was wondering just what these people had against the 21st? I mean this month it was 5-21-11 the Mayans have it out for 12-21-12 and I noticed both days were the 21st. What is it about that number that these end of days people dont like? I just wondered. well for all those out there not reading this Im off...in more ways than one.

Well Im back

Just gotta say it....Funny thing Life.  There got that out of the way. Life gets in the way of so many things keeps you off balance and always turning around. No matter what you think youre gonna do something always comes along and changes things. So much has happened since the last post. I think I will just ramble a bit. Wow what is up with the Osama Bin Laden news. Its been almost a week since He was killed and boy have things gotten wacky. First there were little bits of information about how it went down. Then the story changed now it seems to have settled down to the "official story". Im kinda glad its finally over. I have mixed emotions about this, dont get me wrong I think the world is a better place without him but at the same time people died and dead is permanent. While its permanent it is also a link in events, be sure this is not over. Someone will step into his shoes, hopefully not as well as He did, but they will none the less. I have to say I found some of the display afterwards disturbing, it reminded me a little of the celebration I saw on TV when the 9/11 attack took place. Then I read about a Hotel, in Ohio I think, whose flag was stuck at half mast due to a problem with the pully rope. That place got so many threatening phone calls accusing them of putting the flag half mast for Osama. People are strange sometimes and its amazing what gets going out there. I dunno at least that parts over now we can get to some really fun conspiracy theories. Ive heard theyre already started. I love a good conspiracy theory. They are like saturday morning cartoons when I was a kid so over the top its entertaining. People believe them too thats even better. well Im gonna go I have things to do. I will be back later.....not that it matters I doubt if anyone is actually looking at this. I fell like Im talking into a tape recorder and no one will ever listen to the recording. Oh well ....Funny thing Life.